Endless dreams and a cup of coffee

Waking up to the warmth of the day's first sun rays on your face is remarkable. That goes without saying that that's exactly the way I was able to wake up this morning. In fact, it's still morning in here. I could have slept a lot longer but I felt like maybe it's time to gather some thoughts here and then proceed to the daily tasks that await for me..:)

Living and breathing through music, I've often wondered what it would be like if we had soundtrack to all of our own lives. Imagine the feeling of hearing your favourite love song playing quietly on the background on the day you meet your true love. Continuing on the same line of thought, imagine hearing the tens of violins calling your name in the wind when you stand on the beach while oceanwaves playfully crash next to you. May sound a bit too melodramatic I know. But for some reason that particular thought often procees through my mind and you know what; it may make me look like a mental patient but I don't wanna let go of it. If you share the same creative wave link here, let that feeling take you over one day; you may find yourself smiling in the most surprising of moments.

As for my life in general, it's not really a secret that there are times when I have serious difficulties coping with the reality. It amazes me that I've managed to do the things that I've done so far. We all go through rough times and some wounds just never heal. But I've been trying to let the little things go as much as possible so I can focus my energy on tackling the big ones. And after all, life's too short for hatred and resentment. Beauty is always to be found; it can be a kind thought, a smile on a person's face, your dog greeting you at the door after a long day at work, a card from someone you haven't heard from in ages or, as in my case, the melodies and harmonies that create music..

A friend of mine recently quoted Mark Twain and I couldn't agree more with Twain's words. I also think that that particular quote is truly a proper way of ending this insert: "

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain--

When someone comes and steals your heart..

Hah, what an "original" topic to write about. But hey, it's my blog after all so I'm just going to go with it. The most important reason for this is the feeling of sheer happiness running through me right now. As most people, I also know that this kind of state of mind doesn't usually come around every corner,right? So I figured I must take advantage of it right now.

I have to say though that this time I around I have nothing to really..hmm..how should I say it..well,maybe disagree with or even wonder (in a negative way, at least). I know, I know; sometimes it may seem like these writings go from one end of the emotions spectrum to another in a blink of an eye but I believe that's the way life always is even if one doesn't want to show it so vividly. Deep down we still feel everything.

But as I said, this is an important way to express myself in moments of saddness,happiness and everything in between. This particular occassion happens to be one of happiness. Why am I feelin like this, you may think. To be honest, I don't really know. All I know is that, on moments like these, when we let the world see what's in our hearts, it makes us see that glimpses of heaven can be found right here in the mids of our everyday lives. Embaracing love, friendship and everything that we hold dear, we can start our journey of caring and compassion. I'm not saying that all of a sudden we can change the world; no,the world has made a bit more pessimistic than that. But I AM saying that it shouldn't stop us from reaching to one another and just saying how much people in our lives mean to us.

Music (a topic that will be dealt with a lot in the future) has always provided me shelter when it seemed to rain endlessly. But I as I've grown older, I've seen also the beauty that can be found from within all of us; your next door neighbour, the old man holding a news-stand at the corner of your bloc, the stranger who help you get back on your feet when you accidentally fall down on the street..I guess what I'm trying to say is that there's a lot to be discovered and I am challenging everyone to get on board with me.

Prepare to ride the tide of your life! =)

Why ask why?

I wanted to start with something really common,probably something that anyone can relate to. I've often found myself wondering how and why the world has turned out like this. Don't get me wrong, there's so much positive about it as well. Without a question, there's a lot that each individual can appreciate in their own lives. It's often easy to just complain and whine, but it's important to remember that things could always be worse.

My point in here is not whine as much as just pose some questions that I've been contemplating and ideas that run through my mind non-stop. It may seem like a long list of grievances or something but they are merely just curiosities.

Today the focus will explicitly be on the word 'why'. Why is that when one is ready and willing to literally give a heart for someone, it often happens that, as the sun sets down, the one you love the most end up hurting you (and I mean, in particular, relationships)? I just recently had this kind of experience. In fact it is so recent that it's still on-going. It has kept me up at nights lately. But if some kind of solution is to be found, it was all worth it.

Of course, it takes two to tango, so no one is really able to escape the blame. However, it does feel..obscure and frustrating, when you are in a situation where you think that everything's fine and out of the clear blue sky comes not just the rain but the whole sky.

It is not my intention to demonize anyone in particular, especially 'cause I am by no means flawless or without a guilt. But don't you think that it's often strange that something simple like just saying "I'm sorry" and really meaning it, seems to be the hardest thing in the world? In particular when you know that it would have the potential to heal so many wounds?

Of course, all this discussion is much like the pot calling the kettle black; it doesn't really make anyone innocent. But as I said in the opening statements, a lot of this is actually me talking to myself 'cause sometimes when you just wonder things in your mind, it seems even a bigger mess. It's a sigh of relief to be able to write some of the thoughts down on "paper".

I'm a trying my darnest to be the possible me that I can be and I know that I still have a long way to go. The love that I got so far from so many people has made me what I am and I am thankful for every smile and cheer that I've received. But it's still true that time after time you cannot help but feeling somehow lonely. It's not so obvious or easily explained.

That's the time when the questions always creep up in your mind.."why"...

Opening statements

I thought that it could be a good idea to slightly unveil what lies behind the curtain of me. My intention in these blogwritings is not to piss-off anyone. I take the liberty to speak up my mind and surely not all my thoughts will please everyone.

However,the sole reason for all the (hopefully happening) future writings are to provide myself a way to further express myself. Essentially, then, as much as I hope and encourage feedback, my writings are also in someway me talking to myself (whether that makes any sense at all). I try to share my ideas,thoughts and emotions on various issues that for one reason or another are of importance to me. This can take the form of simply my life experiences, something I've seen happening around me or something more grandeur.

And oh, one important notice. Some writings will probably be released in Finnish. This is largely due to my Finnish origins. Nonetheless, I will attempt to provide as much writings in English as possible. In addition I hope that you will all have patience and understanding with my English skills. As my mother tongue truly is Finnish, problems and misspellings in regard to my use of English will most likely occur. So bear with me..:)

As I said, feedback of all sorts is warmly welcomed and cherished.Even if you'd find yourself disagreeing with me, well-structured and argumented criticisms are also welcome. This journey of mine is one of life-time learning and it would be arrogant of me to believe that I can always separate the right from wrong, good from bad, freshness from the stench of rotten.

Here's a few facts about me and these writings:

1) These are merely my ideas and thoughts; they are not meant to be taken as truths (of course I'd find it pleasing if somebody would actually agree with me but that's slightly beside the point here..)

2) I have my academic background in political science but in no way is my information base neither solid nor full.

3) I encourage participation, feedback and good dialogue. Doing so may not save the world but hopefully someone, in addition to myself, will find strength, comfort and understanding for their own lives (or alternatively, just be entertained).

Ok, so this was just the sound of the engine starting. Soon will follow the official episode number one..remember to love and care for those around you:)

Take care